Thursday, September 27, 2007

Day 40: Inventory

I had another stupid night of drinking and eating too late in the evening last night. I am going to attribute this both to self-sabotage and to stress. On the surface I feel pretty okay about my stress level, but underneath that I am tweaking out because I am spread waaaay too thin and I know there are a lot of things I haven't been taking care of.

Tonight I'm leaving for my very last official interview trip (it's possible I'll take another trip up to check out more places). This is a major source of stress for a couple of reasons: my last trip didn't yield an offer from either of 2 places that I really, really liked. I want to do really well on these ones, so I have better/more choices in the next couple weeks when I have to make a commitment. And also, I am freaking out about whether I'll be able to eat right, exercise, get school work done, and sleep enough. I'm about to hit the halfway mark of this journey, and I can't let things fall apart now.

So. The plan for today: pack my stuff, go to the gym, pick up a couple things at the grocery store & farmer's market, eat the rest of my planned meals, tidy up my room a bit, do a little reading, go to the airport and get to my parents' house.

And I'm planning out what to eat over the next few days. I'm bringing high protein clif bars, almonds and apples with me, and even though it's not ideal to live on those 3 things, they will fill in the gaps between cereal, veggie burgers, etc that I can get at my parents' house. It's only 2 days - I can get through this with no binges of peanut butter, bread, crackers or ice cream!

As for the title of this post: I have made progress in the last 5 1/2 weeks. I have lost around 6 lb. I have gained a lot of muscle tone. I have made exercise and nutrition a very high priority even when things get hectic. I feel good about myself.

Over the next 6 1/2 weeks leading up to the end of this 12 week challenge (which takes me up to the date of my former roommate's wedding, the first time I will have seen her in 6 months!) - I have a few goals and things to ponder. I would like to limit drinking to no more than 2 nights a week, and not get ridiculously hammered each time. I'm going to have to think about how to put this into practice, because I am bad at saying no to a nice glass of chilled white wine or a dirty vodka martini. I want to make sure I actually get into bed early, which is very hard for me lately. I want to make it to EVERY weights workout each week, which has been a big challenge for me. Maybe I could get some resistance bands to make it easier to do that stuff away from the gym... Around 3 weeks from now I'm going to get serious about buying a dress for this wedding, and I want to look hot in it!

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