This morning I got up and it was dark and cold and I just wanted to sleep forever. So I did, or at least, until it was warm and tolerable and 9 am instead of 6. I think this whole working out super-duper early thing may not be working out, seeing as it hasn't happened in weeks. I dragged myself out of bed at 9 and promised I'd work out this afternoon and guess what - I actually did. Hurrah, my first weight lifting session in almost a month. Shameful. But it was good, I did upper body and found that I'm at least as strong on most exercises as I was before, especially the shoulder stuff due most probably to all the yoga. (By all the yoga, I mean I attended 3 45-min classes in the last month...)
So, I've shifted my schedule and the new plan is to get up early and do homework in my warm bed, then hit the gym in the afternoon or evening. As long as I hurry and arrive before 4 pm, lifting is possible in the afternoon, and HIIT can happen anytime except the retardedly busy lunch hour period, so that's fine.
I also just stuffed my face with one of the weirder bingey foods I go for on rare occasions - almonds with garlicky hummus. I don't know if it's that they actually taste good together or that they are the fattiest foods in my kitchen so I naturally pair them. However, I managed to resist both the huge bag of tortilla chips that's been on my counter for a week and a half and the 2 bags of chocolate chips in the cabinet. These both belong to Roommate-Guy, obviously (or they would have been eaten immediately) but he's out for the night and these are easy things to replace. So, better than last Monday night when I inhaled half a bag of tortilla chips and some black bean dip, among other things while pulling a pseudo all nighter.
So, some good and some bad today, but overall I feel pretty good, and the kitchen is closed so no more bingey foods or any foods at all until tomorrow morning.
log for today:
m1: kashi go-lean crunch, frozen blueberries, emergen-c drink
m2: apple, almonds
m3: last night's leftovers (roasted acorn squash, baked teriyaki tofu, roasted cauliflower)
workout: UBWO, 20 mins LISS
m4: spinach and hummus sandwich on whole grain bread
m5: sweet potato, cauliflower and tempeh steamed and doused with salsa
m6: same as m5
unplanned bingey snack: almonds and spinach w/hummus, handful of shredded cheddar (ugh! and not mine!), wee handful of hi-fiber cereal (wtf?)
Monday, October 29, 2007
Sunday, October 28, 2007
Day 71: Reflecting
The last few weeks have been stressful, not very healthy, frustrating, just generally rough on the diet and schoolwork fronts. I've been drinking a lot, not sticking to the plan, not keeping the right groceries in the house, indulging in stress-related binges, eating cheese!
Committing to living healthfully and making my body a priority is hard as a law student, but it is going to be even harder as a lawyer. Well, maybe that's not 100% true since I will have the cash to spring for a membership at a posh fancy gym and that might make me want to work out more than my current crappy gym situation. But anyway. I need to make it a priority right now, for my health and sanity.
I've now got about a week and a half until I leave for CA, which is basically the end of this 12-week journey, and I'm going to put my all into at least not getting too fat for the dress I just bought. I weighed in at a satisfactory but not thrilling number this morning and I'm hoping to drop about 4 lb in the next 2 weeks and to drink a zillion gallons of water so as to not be bloated in my flashy gold and black strapless number.
When I get back, I'm going to start fresh, and I've got a new plan for November and December, leading up to finals and the holidays, and it's going to center around relaxation, comfort and peace. I'm envisioning a lot of yoga, a lot of soup, and some very meditative, cleansing cardio stuff. Pared down, relaxing, centered. I hope that with the power of meditation I can get through the last half of a semester that I have really stacked against myself. Maybe I'll start a new blog, or maybe I'll keep it going with this one, not sure yet.
But for now, it's back on the plan. I bought a ton of groceries yesterday and today I need to get some produce to go along with all that. Hooray for a full pantry and not having an excuse to order Chinese, eat pasta or raid the roomie's cheese supply (ugh!).
Today's plan
m1: kashi go-lean crunch, frozen blueberries, coffee
m2: pear, almonds
m3: hummus & veg sandwich, carrots
m4: soy protein shake
m5: roasted acorn squash, brussels sprouts, steamed tofu
m6: roasted acorn squash, brussels sprouts, steamed tofu
water: at least 3 L
workout: HIIT, LISS
homework: lots!
Go Red Sox!
Committing to living healthfully and making my body a priority is hard as a law student, but it is going to be even harder as a lawyer. Well, maybe that's not 100% true since I will have the cash to spring for a membership at a posh fancy gym and that might make me want to work out more than my current crappy gym situation. But anyway. I need to make it a priority right now, for my health and sanity.
I've now got about a week and a half until I leave for CA, which is basically the end of this 12-week journey, and I'm going to put my all into at least not getting too fat for the dress I just bought. I weighed in at a satisfactory but not thrilling number this morning and I'm hoping to drop about 4 lb in the next 2 weeks and to drink a zillion gallons of water so as to not be bloated in my flashy gold and black strapless number.
When I get back, I'm going to start fresh, and I've got a new plan for November and December, leading up to finals and the holidays, and it's going to center around relaxation, comfort and peace. I'm envisioning a lot of yoga, a lot of soup, and some very meditative, cleansing cardio stuff. Pared down, relaxing, centered. I hope that with the power of meditation I can get through the last half of a semester that I have really stacked against myself. Maybe I'll start a new blog, or maybe I'll keep it going with this one, not sure yet.
But for now, it's back on the plan. I bought a ton of groceries yesterday and today I need to get some produce to go along with all that. Hooray for a full pantry and not having an excuse to order Chinese, eat pasta or raid the roomie's cheese supply (ugh!).
Today's plan
m1: kashi go-lean crunch, frozen blueberries, coffee
m2: pear, almonds
m3: hummus & veg sandwich, carrots
m4: soy protein shake
m5: roasted acorn squash, brussels sprouts, steamed tofu
m6: roasted acorn squash, brussels sprouts, steamed tofu
water: at least 3 L
workout: HIIT, LISS
homework: lots!
Go Red Sox!
Saturday, October 20, 2007
Day ??: Jeeeeepers
Well. I haven't been working out and having been eating like a hyperactive kid on crack. So, that's what's been happening in all this time.
I've been stressed out, to say the least - there was a weekend of awesomeness in between where I went to West Virginia and visited my favorite ladies, and that I will say was totally worth the out of control stress level I seem to be dealing with now. But today, I feel good about today. I'm working on the eating part first, and tomorrow I'm going back to the gym. Weeks 10-12 are going to be kickass, and I'm going to look amazing for the Nov 10 wedding. And sometime in the middle there I'll get around to buying a dress with all the money I don't have. Oy vey!
Still, my fridge is full of fresh delicious veggies, I'm fully caffeinated, and I've gotten a bit of work done today. Hallelujah, being virtuous can feel so good.
Plan for today: do lots of homework, don't get drunk, eat vegetables!
M1: heart-healthy cereal (some new thing I tried from FreshDirect, not bad); strawberries; coffee
M2: 2 Yves GoodDogs, 2 slices of multi-grain bread
M3: roasted pepper & alfalfa sprout sandwich, carrot sticks (yes, a lot of bread so far today)
M4: soy protein shake (hope my soy milk is still good...)
M5: swiss chard, garlicky mashed potatoes, baked tofu
M6: swiss chard, garlicky mashed potatoes, baked tofu
Go, go go! You can do it!
I've been stressed out, to say the least - there was a weekend of awesomeness in between where I went to West Virginia and visited my favorite ladies, and that I will say was totally worth the out of control stress level I seem to be dealing with now. But today, I feel good about today. I'm working on the eating part first, and tomorrow I'm going back to the gym. Weeks 10-12 are going to be kickass, and I'm going to look amazing for the Nov 10 wedding. And sometime in the middle there I'll get around to buying a dress with all the money I don't have. Oy vey!
Still, my fridge is full of fresh delicious veggies, I'm fully caffeinated, and I've gotten a bit of work done today. Hallelujah, being virtuous can feel so good.
Plan for today: do lots of homework, don't get drunk, eat vegetables!
M1: heart-healthy cereal (some new thing I tried from FreshDirect, not bad); strawberries; coffee
M2: 2 Yves GoodDogs, 2 slices of multi-grain bread
M3: roasted pepper & alfalfa sprout sandwich, carrot sticks (yes, a lot of bread so far today)
M4: soy protein shake (hope my soy milk is still good...)
M5: swiss chard, garlicky mashed potatoes, baked tofu
M6: swiss chard, garlicky mashed potatoes, baked tofu
Go, go go! You can do it!
Wednesday, October 10, 2007
Day 53: Bump, Ouch
I have fallen off the BFL wagon, and fallen really f'ing hard.
The last few days have been abysmal. I have denied myself nothing, and I've even eaten things I didn't want to eat. I haven't worked out since Sunday. I've been "sneaking food," running home to eat because I know my roommate is away. I have eaten some of his food because I know I can replace it before he gets home.
Sigh. It feels good to kind of confess it here. I used to date someone who had been overweight before and had a lot of food/body issues, and when I got really worked up about stuff I would confess it to him, or just tell him I was upset about the way I looked. I had never told anyone that stuff before, and telling him was always hard, but I knew he understood. I kind of forgot about that till just now. I also blame my body image issues in part for our breakup, because after I moved to NY for law school, I started to gain some weight and definitely lost the muscle tone I'd worked so hard for in the year before I got here. I was less comfortable having him see me, and less comfortable going out into the world because I knew my clothes didn't look as good.
I started to get close to my lowest-ever weight, in the last few weeks, and it was scary. The way I got to that weight the first time was by being in love. I mean, I also worked out a lot, but primarily it had to do with the fact that I had an awesome routine. I had my "me time" at the gym right after work, busted my butt on the stepmill and in spinning class, then got home and showered and this guy I really loved would come over and help me cook an awesomely delicious vegan meal, have a glass of wine and some deep conversation, then roll around in bed and fall asleep. And we'd get up the next morning, have breakfast, pack a healthy lunch and do it all over. There was no sneaking into the kitchen late at night, no wine and chocolate in front of the tv alone. No third helpings of dinner after I'm already stuffed. It was a revolution in my life, and it gave me hope, since previously I had worried that if I ever lived with someone I'd get stressed out about not being able to sneak food.
Pfew. So, that's some kind of heavy stuff there. I have a lot of issues about this breakup that have nothing to do, per se, with the person who is no longer in my life. I was sad about that for a while, but since we live in different cities and we had a bad reunion this summer, I'm ok with us not seeing each other for the foreseeable future. But there was a lot of comfort attached to being in a serious relationship.
And I'm stressed. A lot is going on - job search, school, travel, the usual introspective, existential crap. I'm having a tough time holding it together.
I'm giving myself a by for the days that have passed, but tonight I'm going to make a plan for how things are going to go when I get back, and I'm going to make myself a nutritious dinner of roasted pattypans, brown rice and probably some tofu that I need to use or toss before my trip.
The next 4 weeks leading up to E's wedding in California, I'm going to get more serious about taking care of myself. Going to bed earlier, prioritizing my workouts, and doing the things that make me happy - there may be a lot of bubble baths involved, after I scrub the hell out of my dingy bathroom. I am going to do what needs to be done, to make myself happy, healthy, back to feeling like I felt when I was in love (and thin) a couple years ago, but sans the boyfriend who couldn't handle what I have to offer.
The last few days have been abysmal. I have denied myself nothing, and I've even eaten things I didn't want to eat. I haven't worked out since Sunday. I've been "sneaking food," running home to eat because I know my roommate is away. I have eaten some of his food because I know I can replace it before he gets home.
Sigh. It feels good to kind of confess it here. I used to date someone who had been overweight before and had a lot of food/body issues, and when I got really worked up about stuff I would confess it to him, or just tell him I was upset about the way I looked. I had never told anyone that stuff before, and telling him was always hard, but I knew he understood. I kind of forgot about that till just now. I also blame my body image issues in part for our breakup, because after I moved to NY for law school, I started to gain some weight and definitely lost the muscle tone I'd worked so hard for in the year before I got here. I was less comfortable having him see me, and less comfortable going out into the world because I knew my clothes didn't look as good.
I started to get close to my lowest-ever weight, in the last few weeks, and it was scary. The way I got to that weight the first time was by being in love. I mean, I also worked out a lot, but primarily it had to do with the fact that I had an awesome routine. I had my "me time" at the gym right after work, busted my butt on the stepmill and in spinning class, then got home and showered and this guy I really loved would come over and help me cook an awesomely delicious vegan meal, have a glass of wine and some deep conversation, then roll around in bed and fall asleep. And we'd get up the next morning, have breakfast, pack a healthy lunch and do it all over. There was no sneaking into the kitchen late at night, no wine and chocolate in front of the tv alone. No third helpings of dinner after I'm already stuffed. It was a revolution in my life, and it gave me hope, since previously I had worried that if I ever lived with someone I'd get stressed out about not being able to sneak food.
Pfew. So, that's some kind of heavy stuff there. I have a lot of issues about this breakup that have nothing to do, per se, with the person who is no longer in my life. I was sad about that for a while, but since we live in different cities and we had a bad reunion this summer, I'm ok with us not seeing each other for the foreseeable future. But there was a lot of comfort attached to being in a serious relationship.
And I'm stressed. A lot is going on - job search, school, travel, the usual introspective, existential crap. I'm having a tough time holding it together.
I'm giving myself a by for the days that have passed, but tonight I'm going to make a plan for how things are going to go when I get back, and I'm going to make myself a nutritious dinner of roasted pattypans, brown rice and probably some tofu that I need to use or toss before my trip.
The next 4 weeks leading up to E's wedding in California, I'm going to get more serious about taking care of myself. Going to bed earlier, prioritizing my workouts, and doing the things that make me happy - there may be a lot of bubble baths involved, after I scrub the hell out of my dingy bathroom. I am going to do what needs to be done, to make myself happy, healthy, back to feeling like I felt when I was in love (and thin) a couple years ago, but sans the boyfriend who couldn't handle what I have to offer.
Sunday, October 7, 2007
Day 50: YESSSSS! Sox Sweep!
Today I really didn't want to go to the gym - I've been kind of sucking, since I missed my Wednesday workout. I made it for HIIT on Thursday (plus yoga sculpt class), then skipped weights again on Friday, didn't do anything yesterday, and today it was a struggle. But I put on my gym clothes (this almost always works to get me there, especially if I put them on and go somewhere near the gym). And I got there, and sat down on a bike next to a guy I would describe as kind of fat and fairly out of shape. But he was plugging along and I felt like we were pushing each other. I definitely kicked some ass (not his, my own). I had good music going, and I brought stuff to read, and the time flew by. I was sad when the fat guy got up and left halfway thru my workout - I felt like we had a sweaty gym chemistry.
So, this week is another week of challenges. WV trip on Thursday night! I'm missing yoga sculpt again, and I have few illusions about working out or eating right while I'm in WV. But I'm going to bring my stuff and maybe I can at least get in a jog around town with one or two of my ladies. And I'm packing lots of fruits and veggies - road trip snacks shopping will happen soon, and will definitely include things like carrots, apples, maybe some high-fiber crackers or something - whatever I can find that will fill me up and be reasonably healthy.
Eating today was also reasonably good - eating yesterday was unequivocally horrific. I'm blaming the PMS monster for making me purchase and eat a shitload of chocolate as well as half a pound of scrambled tofu and various other things that wouldn't be so bad in isolation but since it was a whole day of binge-o-rama, it was very very bad.
OK, time to pop my roasted cauliflower and veggie loaf out of the oven. I love Sunday dinner!
So, this week is another week of challenges. WV trip on Thursday night! I'm missing yoga sculpt again, and I have few illusions about working out or eating right while I'm in WV. But I'm going to bring my stuff and maybe I can at least get in a jog around town with one or two of my ladies. And I'm packing lots of fruits and veggies - road trip snacks shopping will happen soon, and will definitely include things like carrots, apples, maybe some high-fiber crackers or something - whatever I can find that will fill me up and be reasonably healthy.
Eating today was also reasonably good - eating yesterday was unequivocally horrific. I'm blaming the PMS monster for making me purchase and eat a shitload of chocolate as well as half a pound of scrambled tofu and various other things that wouldn't be so bad in isolation but since it was a whole day of binge-o-rama, it was very very bad.
OK, time to pop my roasted cauliflower and veggie loaf out of the oven. I love Sunday dinner!
Friday, October 5, 2007
Day 48: Go Sox
Well, I slept in till 8 this morning, which means I did not make it to my early morning weights workout - I have to be at school by 9:40 for journal crap that's going to take most of the day. Then I've got my rescheduled doctor's appointment (yay birth control) and I'm heading over to the health food store to pick up some nutritional yeast for experiments in faux cheese making, and for pesto tonight.
So it's not looking like I'll make it over there today, but I'm thinking tomorrow I can do both Wednesday's lower body workout and today's upper body workout. And then I'll come home and sleep for a year. This weekend I need to get it together and catch up in all my classes before I go to WV and get behind all over again. Today I'm going to conquer international law, tomorrow admin, Sunday copyright. Or something like that...
Not much else to say. I've eaten some bad stuff this week, including chocolate last night after stuffing myself on delicious wonderful soba noodles. Bad bad bad. But at least I didn't drink - it was hard, but K was hungover and I was determined. So, no drinking.
Today's plan
m1: kashi go-lean crunch, froz blueberries
m2: sandwich, carrots
m3: almonds, apple or pear
m4: soy protein shake
m5: spaghetti squash with artichoke pesto & veggies, tempeh
m6: unsure, probably 2 beers in a bar watching the Red Sox
workout: if time stops for a couple hours I'll make it to the gym, otherwise putting it off til tomorrow
So it's not looking like I'll make it over there today, but I'm thinking tomorrow I can do both Wednesday's lower body workout and today's upper body workout. And then I'll come home and sleep for a year. This weekend I need to get it together and catch up in all my classes before I go to WV and get behind all over again. Today I'm going to conquer international law, tomorrow admin, Sunday copyright. Or something like that...
Not much else to say. I've eaten some bad stuff this week, including chocolate last night after stuffing myself on delicious wonderful soba noodles. Bad bad bad. But at least I didn't drink - it was hard, but K was hungover and I was determined. So, no drinking.
Today's plan
m1: kashi go-lean crunch, froz blueberries
m2: sandwich, carrots
m3: almonds, apple or pear
m4: soy protein shake
m5: spaghetti squash with artichoke pesto & veggies, tempeh
m6: unsure, probably 2 beers in a bar watching the Red Sox
workout: if time stops for a couple hours I'll make it to the gym, otherwise putting it off til tomorrow
Thursday, October 4, 2007
Day 47: WTF?
Well, I didn't make it to the gym yesterday for my weights stuff. And then I didn't get up and go early this morning, for no particular reason except it was dark and I didn't feel like it.
Come on! What is my problem!?
I guess the problem is that I am feeling crappy this week. I'm tired, I've had a sore throat, I'm just really worn down. I fell asleep yesterday afternoon and missed a class. My hardest class, where I have no freaking clue what is going on. I should probably be doing the reading and going more. It's just like civ pro all over again, but I'd like to pull it together while I have the chance and not get a crappy grade like I did in civ pro. Oy.
Today's the end of my week, more or less, and I'm bummed out probably because it's also the middle of PMS-o-rama, which always brings me down. Oh and at the law firm dinner last night, which I forgot about until the last minute, I ate a big pile of cheese, and then was in ridiculous pain, and now I'm all farty. Gross.
Plan for today - try and hold it together, lady! I have my first yoga sculpt class today, so I'm going to do some cardio after that - ideally HIIT, but if my limbs are falling off it'll probably be more in the LISS category. And then tomorrow, I guess I'll do yesterday's workout, since it's not good to go all week without doing lower body.
Goddamn! I wasn't going to miss any workouts this week! And I wasn't going to drink, but I only had one and a half (huge) glasses of white wine last night. Why am I such a failure?! Why is my life so hard?! Why do I have to be so ridiculously dramatic and exclamatory all the time!?!?!?!?!
Today's menu:
m1: kashi go-lean crunch w/frozen blueberries
m2: pear, almonds
m3: sandwich, carrots
m4: protein shake
m5: soba w/tofu and asparagus (really this time)
m6: soba w/tofu and asparagus
workout: yoga sculpt, followed by cardio
Come on! What is my problem!?
I guess the problem is that I am feeling crappy this week. I'm tired, I've had a sore throat, I'm just really worn down. I fell asleep yesterday afternoon and missed a class. My hardest class, where I have no freaking clue what is going on. I should probably be doing the reading and going more. It's just like civ pro all over again, but I'd like to pull it together while I have the chance and not get a crappy grade like I did in civ pro. Oy.
Today's the end of my week, more or less, and I'm bummed out probably because it's also the middle of PMS-o-rama, which always brings me down. Oh and at the law firm dinner last night, which I forgot about until the last minute, I ate a big pile of cheese, and then was in ridiculous pain, and now I'm all farty. Gross.
Plan for today - try and hold it together, lady! I have my first yoga sculpt class today, so I'm going to do some cardio after that - ideally HIIT, but if my limbs are falling off it'll probably be more in the LISS category. And then tomorrow, I guess I'll do yesterday's workout, since it's not good to go all week without doing lower body.
Goddamn! I wasn't going to miss any workouts this week! And I wasn't going to drink, but I only had one and a half (huge) glasses of white wine last night. Why am I such a failure?! Why is my life so hard?! Why do I have to be so ridiculously dramatic and exclamatory all the time!?!?!?!?!
Today's menu:
m1: kashi go-lean crunch w/frozen blueberries
m2: pear, almonds
m3: sandwich, carrots
m4: protein shake
m5: soba w/tofu and asparagus (really this time)
m6: soba w/tofu and asparagus
workout: yoga sculpt, followed by cardio
Wednesday, October 3, 2007
Day 46: Damn Doctor
I missed my UBWO this morning because I had a doctor's appt (annual thing to get my birth control renewed) at 9:20 am. I didn't get up until 7:15, at which point it just seemed like I wouldn't have time to work out, shower and get over there in time. But when I went over there, they told me I signed up for the wrong appointment and would have to come back. Ugggh. In the real world of grownups, you don't sign up for your doctor's appointment online and have them not know what you're there for when you show up. You call and talk to someone who asks you why the hell you are in. Jesus H. So, I will go back on Friday, and I'll do my workout in the tiny window of time this afternoon between my last class and the law firm dinner I'm going to.
Somehow it seems as though diet & exercise only get under control when EVERYTHING ELSE is totally out of control. I'm kind of flailing around not doing what I need to do for school and job stuff. I guess I always feel this way on Wednesday mornings though since Tuesdays leave me so exhausted and I have no time at the end of the day to do anything productive. I got home at 10:30 last night, talked to K on the phone for a few minutes then collapsed into bed.
Today, I'm on track with eating, I'll get my workout in somehow (damn it!) and I must, must, must do laundry. I'm down to the last of the most hated gym clothes, and tomorrow I'll be doing HIIT naked if I don't manage to wash some stuff. Not sure when it'll happen, but I guess it means I better haul ass back from my dinner, since the laundry room closes at 10:30. Why does everyone have to conspire to make my life so hard?!
This weekend: so productive. I'm not drinking, so that means I'd better be reading. I must catch up in my classes, since my super intense 3 weeks seminar starts next Monday. So, I will be hiding in my room and/or the library starting around 3 pm Friday, until about 9 am Monday.
Somehow it seems as though diet & exercise only get under control when EVERYTHING ELSE is totally out of control. I'm kind of flailing around not doing what I need to do for school and job stuff. I guess I always feel this way on Wednesday mornings though since Tuesdays leave me so exhausted and I have no time at the end of the day to do anything productive. I got home at 10:30 last night, talked to K on the phone for a few minutes then collapsed into bed.
Today, I'm on track with eating, I'll get my workout in somehow (damn it!) and I must, must, must do laundry. I'm down to the last of the most hated gym clothes, and tomorrow I'll be doing HIIT naked if I don't manage to wash some stuff. Not sure when it'll happen, but I guess it means I better haul ass back from my dinner, since the laundry room closes at 10:30. Why does everyone have to conspire to make my life so hard?!
This weekend: so productive. I'm not drinking, so that means I'd better be reading. I must catch up in my classes, since my super intense 3 weeks seminar starts next Monday. So, I will be hiding in my room and/or the library starting around 3 pm Friday, until about 9 am Monday.
Tuesday, October 2, 2007
Day 45: This time, with feeling
I stayed up too late last night fantasizing about food! I was on menupages.com doing research for a big anniversary dinner (my parents' 30th, next month), and drooling all over my computer. But I managed to get up reasonably early and got to the gym around 7 to do HIIT and LISS. It was not easy. I was tired, everything hurt, all my favorite workout clothes are dirty, etc. Quick, somebody call the waaaaahmbulance.
But I did it, and I've been bringing reading to do during LISS so it doesn't drag on - it's productive time, certainly more productive than if I just went home and read Perez Hilton instead, which is my usual time-suck early in the morning.
Meals today have also been right on so far, since I've been out of the apartment for just about all of them. Next up I'm about to cook up some couscous with tofu and zucchini, doused with a bit of soy sauce and just a few black sesame seeds. I'll have half for M5 here and then drag the rest along to my evening activities and have M6 around 8 pm. Tuesdays are an easy day for food, since I am not in my apartment like, at all.
And the scale was back down today. I think I'm going to make my Friday goal of getting to 1 lb lower than my lowest weight. Well, I shouldn't say that now since I'm coming up on my period so I may be a bloated whale by Friday. But maybe I will still meet my goal next week of another 1-2 lb lower than the Friday goal, before my big West Virginia trip (yaaaay). I'm so, so stoked to go see my best friends from college, one of whom I haven't seen in well over a year. Eating well, and especially eating vegan, is going to be hard or impossible, but I'm going to pack a lot of fruit and veggies, and just do the best I can, which of course is all you can do in this life. I just need to try not to eat my weight in biscuits and I should be ok. And not come home with cartons of cheap, cheap cigarettes. Ieee.
But I did it, and I've been bringing reading to do during LISS so it doesn't drag on - it's productive time, certainly more productive than if I just went home and read Perez Hilton instead, which is my usual time-suck early in the morning.
Meals today have also been right on so far, since I've been out of the apartment for just about all of them. Next up I'm about to cook up some couscous with tofu and zucchini, doused with a bit of soy sauce and just a few black sesame seeds. I'll have half for M5 here and then drag the rest along to my evening activities and have M6 around 8 pm. Tuesdays are an easy day for food, since I am not in my apartment like, at all.
And the scale was back down today. I think I'm going to make my Friday goal of getting to 1 lb lower than my lowest weight. Well, I shouldn't say that now since I'm coming up on my period so I may be a bloated whale by Friday. But maybe I will still meet my goal next week of another 1-2 lb lower than the Friday goal, before my big West Virginia trip (yaaaay). I'm so, so stoked to go see my best friends from college, one of whom I haven't seen in well over a year. Eating well, and especially eating vegan, is going to be hard or impossible, but I'm going to pack a lot of fruit and veggies, and just do the best I can, which of course is all you can do in this life. I just need to try not to eat my weight in biscuits and I should be ok. And not come home with cartons of cheap, cheap cigarettes. Ieee.
Monday, October 1, 2007
Hungry or Stressed?
The eating plan I'm doing now doesn't involve eating-only-until-full or eating mindfully, necessarily. It should involve those things in a way, but generally I'm on the 6 meals a day body-builder style plan to fight insulin resistance and keep energy high all day. Is it working? I don't know - sometimes I get very hungry and I justify having a snack. I generally have a 100-200 calorie window where I can throw in something extra, or switch out one meal for another when I get too lazy to cook what's on Plan A.
Today I felt super hungry for a lot of the day, and when I finally came home, I sat in front of the tv and devoured a whole bell pepper, a bunch of carrot sticks, and of course a bunch of hummus. The veggies and hummus (or even better - chips and hummus) get me every damn time. I don't know how I managed to resist it in the first few weeks I was doing this. Actually, I do - I was never home. I packed all my meals and had them somewhere other than my apartment. It's only in the apartment that I'm stuffing my face with delicious creamy hummus.
Also, it is getting cold. I have spent a lot of "homework time" paging thru all my cookbooks to find delicious soup recipes that I want to try. I think that maybe in the next few months Sunday will be soup night. And then I could have delicious homemade soup in the fridge or freezer to have again later. Delish!
Today I felt super hungry for a lot of the day, and when I finally came home, I sat in front of the tv and devoured a whole bell pepper, a bunch of carrot sticks, and of course a bunch of hummus. The veggies and hummus (or even better - chips and hummus) get me every damn time. I don't know how I managed to resist it in the first few weeks I was doing this. Actually, I do - I was never home. I packed all my meals and had them somewhere other than my apartment. It's only in the apartment that I'm stuffing my face with delicious creamy hummus.
Also, it is getting cold. I have spent a lot of "homework time" paging thru all my cookbooks to find delicious soup recipes that I want to try. I think that maybe in the next few months Sunday will be soup night. And then I could have delicious homemade soup in the fridge or freezer to have again later. Delish!
Day 44: Not bad
Well, yesterday was a relative success - or, really, a total success since I did my workout, ate all my planned meals, and went to bed almost on time. The less successful part is getting school work done. You win some, you lose some.
And then this morning I got up early(ish) and went to the gym around 7:15, for the first time in probably 2 weeks. I didn't get there in time to do LISS, but I banged out a very respectable UBWO, then hustled home to shower and have breakfast, which is where I am right now.
I read all of Skinny Bitch yesterday, and I must say, it has nothing to do with becoming a skinny bitch and everything to do with eating an organic, vegan diet. And says as much, on the very last page. I just kept waiting for the chapter that would be "oh, also, limit your calories." They advise that you just have a big plate of fruit for breakfast and a veggie salad for lunch, but then in their little menu plan all the breakfasts and lunches are made of tofu and bread, or something like that.
My goal for this week is to get back down my lowest (recent) weight by Friday, to be achieved by the resolutions I made yesterday - not drinking, not missing any workouts and eating loads of good veggies. Before I leave for West Virginia next week I'd really like to be seeing a new low. I just have to put my head down and work - on school stuff, on exercise, on sticking to the diet plan. Just push through.
Plan
workout: UBWO
m1: kashi, frozen blueberries
m2: apple, almonds
m3: hummus & veggie sandwich, carrots
m4: soy protein shake
m5: sweet potato, cauliflower and tempeh (steamed and doused with salsa)
m6: same as m5
And then this morning I got up early(ish) and went to the gym around 7:15, for the first time in probably 2 weeks. I didn't get there in time to do LISS, but I banged out a very respectable UBWO, then hustled home to shower and have breakfast, which is where I am right now.
I read all of Skinny Bitch yesterday, and I must say, it has nothing to do with becoming a skinny bitch and everything to do with eating an organic, vegan diet. And says as much, on the very last page. I just kept waiting for the chapter that would be "oh, also, limit your calories." They advise that you just have a big plate of fruit for breakfast and a veggie salad for lunch, but then in their little menu plan all the breakfasts and lunches are made of tofu and bread, or something like that.
My goal for this week is to get back down my lowest (recent) weight by Friday, to be achieved by the resolutions I made yesterday - not drinking, not missing any workouts and eating loads of good veggies. Before I leave for West Virginia next week I'd really like to be seeing a new low. I just have to put my head down and work - on school stuff, on exercise, on sticking to the diet plan. Just push through.
Plan
workout: UBWO
m1: kashi, frozen blueberries
m2: apple, almonds
m3: hummus & veggie sandwich, carrots
m4: soy protein shake
m5: sweet potato, cauliflower and tempeh (steamed and doused with salsa)
m6: same as m5
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